Unhealthy
작성자: 잉글리쉬쌤
조회: 1961
2017. 8. 18.
I think a lot about how
We all grew upAround unhealthy things
Without ever realizing that they were
Just that:
Unhealthy
My father smells like teriyaki
And cigarettes
So much that the smell of smoke
Became synonymous with, “Daddy’s home.”
Instead of the sound
Of failing lungs in the other room
I guess that’s why
The idea of smoking
Doesn’t terrify me as much
As they all teach me it should
And honestly, neither does
That trail of silver smoke behind us
For as long as I could remember
I’ve painted my nails
and danced with my uncles at parties
with a particular scent
so much that I can say that I’m familiar
with the smell of alcohol
I guess that’s why
The idea of drinking
Doesn’t scare me as much
As I’ve been taught it should
And how honestly, neither does
That last sip before the buzz
I didn’t have Barbie dolls growing up,
But I still saw “beautiful dolls”
On TV and in books and advertisements
And in a community where tiny was average
Because smaller
Meant prettier
I guess that’s why
the sight of protruding bones
doesn’t daunt me as much
as everyone else said it should
and neither do
the scars on my knuckles
I think a lot about how
we all grow up
around unhealthy things
and now I think about
how unhealthy
I’ve become.