There is something, A nagging annoyance inside my brain That controls me And won¡¯t let me free. It conquers my head,
Flooding it with negativity. It sucks the life out of me, Like a mosquito would draw blood. And it is this same mosquito that thinks
That it¡¯s okay to torture me, It¡¯s okay to bully me, With a constant reminder of everything wrong. And they all say that
I shouldn¡¯t let this pest affect me. People are starving. People are suffering. But I still let it control me.
There¡¯s nothing I can do to stop it. The mosquito is now a part me, And there it will stay for now. Constantly there to make me anxious
About anything that crosses my path. There to intoxicate me with an electric shock, Anytime I might actually feel content. Maybe it will soon leave my brain,
But only to fly around the rest of my body, And broaden it¡¯s already wide territory. One day I will learn the ability
To productively use all of the anxiety That it gifts me And become successful. And when I do,
I will have earned the strength To kill the mosquito That poisoned me all these years.
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