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Á¦¸ñ Unhealthy ÀÛ¼ºÀÚ À×±Û¸®½¬½Ü µî·ÏÀÏ 2017-08-17 I think a lot about how
We all grew up
Around unhealthy things
Without ever realizing that they were
Just that:
Unhealthy
My father smells like teriyaki
And cigarettes
So much that the smell of smoke
Became synonymous with, ¡°Daddy¡¯s home.¡±
Instead of the sound
Of failing lungs in the other room
I guess that¡¯s why
The idea of smoking
Doesn¡¯t terrify me as much
As they all teach me it should
And honestly, neither does
That trail of silver smoke behind us
For as long as I could remember
I¡¯ve painted my nails
and danced with my uncles at parties
with a particular scent
so much that I can say that I¡¯m familiar
with the smell of alcohol
I guess that¡¯s why
The idea of drinking
Doesn¡¯t scare me as much
As I¡¯ve been taught it should
And how honestly, neither does
That last sip before the buzz
I didn¡¯t have Barbie dolls growing up,
But I still saw ¡°beautiful dolls¡±
On TV and in books and advertisements
And in a community where tiny was average
Because smaller
Meant prettier
I guess that¡¯s why
the sight of protruding bones
doesn¡¯t daunt me as much
as everyone else said it should
and neither do
the scars on my knuckles
I think a lot about how
we all grow up
around unhealthy things
and now I think about
how unhealthyI¡¯ve become.
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