I would
honestly call this day a bad day.
You might
not expect to hear that from a positive person but that¡¯s the way I feel today.
That¡¯s
the way I feel for a couple of weeks already.
Perhaps
everybody has a bad day.
Perhaps
all of us have moments in life when we feel like quitting on things, tasks,
job, school, mission, responsibilities, etc.
Sometimes
something sucks the life out of us that we don¡¯t feel like waking up, start the
day, or face reality.
I sense
in me an inconsistency.
I used to
be fired up in a mission of saving a friend from himself and now in saving his
marriage.
But today
I just want to escape.
I want to
think about myself and my life.
I want to
care about my family and my future.
I¡¯m tired
of caring about someone else¡¯s life, marriage, family and
relationship with God.
I feel
like I¡¯m losing my own relationships as I go and save others¡¯.
I want
some time off.
I want to
do what I want to do —things that would make me happy.
I want to
be with my family.
I want to
be in the church always.
I want to
disciple people, read the bible with them and pray with them.
But this
path that I chose in faith seems to drag me away from my intimacy with God.
I want
this situation to be over soon.
I¡¯m
begging God to take me away from here.
I want to
go back to Him in daily devotion which my job has deprived me.
I want to
be available for people who wish to learn the word of God and longs to know His
love.
However I
still believe that it was God who put me into this situation to be a blessing.
But it is
so tempting to be selfish.
It is so
tempting to give up on someone and just go on with your own life.
But today
I pray for strength.
I pray
for more love and more patience.
And I
pray that as I do my mission I don¡¯t lose my own intimacy with God in the
process.
And I¡¯m
thankful for people that God has provided to encourage me and affirm that I¡¯m
doing the right thing.
Now I¡¯m
thinking about encouraging people who feels the same.
If you
are that person then I say that you hold on.
Don¡¯t
give up.
Stay
positive and let your positive perspective be evident so that people who needs
help will be drawn to you and ask you where you get your strength and why you
have lots of faith.
Be the
light and the salt.
And let
your light shine.
Be an instrument to point people to Christ that
they too may find hope and a sense of purpose.
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